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my third thursday thirteen

Thirteen Foreign TV Shows I really LOVE

  1. Scrubs. It is a sitcom, but somehow they manage to inflict lessons about friendship, morality and anything about life. I'm not a film student nor i pretend to be, but the way the cameras are used is really unique and amazing. It's what got me hooked to watching sitcoms and tv series.
  2. Crime Scene Investigation. Do I need to explain? The original is still the best. I got addicted to the show I think this is the reason I stopped working before. haha.\
  3. CSI: NY. It follows, right? I loved CSI, so I love CSI NY too. Oh and did I mention I really like Eddie Cahill. Yeah, I guess I keep repeating that.
  4. Heroes. When I first saw it at the DVD store I thought it was corny since I'm not really a fan of fantasy flicks like xmen and such. One boring night though, I watched the 3rd episode on RPN-9 with my housemate, Kiko. After watching it he decided to buy the DVD right then and there.
  5. Numb3rs. Cute little Professor Eppes and Fleindhart always saves the day. They make math and physics sound so easy. I just hope Fleindhart will come back to the show soon after going to the moon (or to 24.)
  6. House MD. I've encountered so many sarcastic people in TV shows but he really holds the crown for being adorably annoying. I'm sad that his 3 protégés left the show. I'm hoping to see more diversity in characters again. I got this website that shows his quips and quotes. really fun.
  7. Full House. Yes, its only a season, but I really loved the house - which is the main setting and the characters. I could go on and on about the house used, but I suggest you follow the link.
  8. Criminal Minds. Another buy by my housemate Kiko. Its a whodunnit TV series too, this time focusing on criminal profiler to solve crimes.
  9. Kyle XY. I think I already wrote enough about him here.
  10. Princess Hours. Probably the 'cutest' korean TV series there is. It was a hit show here in the Philippines, and I guess on youtube too.
  11. Detective Conan. This cute nosy little detective is my favorite Japanese tv character. The copy I bought contained really good subtitles complete with 'notes' about how these words are used.
  12. Extreme Make Over Home Edition. I'm a frustrated architect cum interior designer - do you see why I love watching homes being wrecked and rebuilt?
  13. I'm tempted to say Grey's Anatomy, but you see, I haven't seen it yet. My sister says its really good, and she told me its storyline. But since this is about what I have seen, then I'll just say Prison Break. Michael Scofield is really gorgeous, isn't he? I just wished the story isn't full of suspense, because I can't work up the courage to finish the entire series yet.

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again, im incoherent.

I finally found someone who expressed intelligibility what i've been trying to say during the drinking session I had with my office buddies weeks before. One of my office buddies, teased me endlessly why I think self-fulfilment is so important before I get married. I told him that once I can say I'm happy with what I am, then I can really find myself committing to someone I love.
Anyway, she is a character in the book by Paulo Coelho, The Zahir. Im almost tempted to quote an entire chapter here just to get my point across. I'm sure its illegal, so let me try to tell you about it instead.
The character - her name is Esther - is married to a celebrity writer. She is asking her husband to let her be a war correspondent. The reason, she says, is her unhappiness despite having everything a woman could want. She gave several examples, like how a 'happy couple' seem happy when they worry about too many things, how accomplished people really wished to be someone else but was forced to be the way they are, without them knowing if its what they want or what others told them they wanted.
So...she goes on and searched for an epiphany why the world is unhappy. Why everyone seems unfulfilled. Or rather, if the world has always been like it is now.
I guess what i'm incoherently trying to say here is that you need to read the novel. I really don't know how to get express my thoughts into words. That's why I leave it to the experts.

urban legends

I'm not a cheerful mood today. I slept so little this morning. I woke up at the sound (or rather vibration) of my cellphone, and it was my boyfriend Harvey calling. He said he's displeased with me. Course I bolted up from and asked him why. He said his mother saw my facebook pictures and was unhappy when she saw my pictures drinking and smoking ciggies. Hmm.. he says it matters to him what his mom thinks so I should remove those pics pronto and stop smoking asap. I wish both have the same level of difficulty of doing. Hayy.
Anyway last night I went to Teepee's party and ate lots of bbq salad and carbonara. Yeah i drank a bottle of san mig light and nothing else. We talked about nothing but starlets and has-beens and Julie Vega and urban legends around her. That's because there was nothing on TV but Walang Tulugan. In all fairness we finished the entire show which lasted for hours. After bashing the show and all there was an unanswered question. I know I've read in a magazine when I was young that Julie Vega's death has somehow paranormal causes. I think the story says she has a suitor of a supernatural specie and wooed her until she joined him. Whatever.
Right now I can't think straight and I'm writing without direction. I found this interesting link that our national hero Rizal is suspected of being the illusive Jack the Ripper. I'm having fun reading the comments between 2 pinoys with different perspectives. Then I stumbled on an article saying that Jack the Ripper was a mason. Hmm. Too much conspiracy theory here. Anyways since i'm not making any sense maybe I should stop writing.

new header

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I don't feel really well lately. If you've noticed, I didn't even write anything other than the meme. I couldn't think of a topic to write about so what I did was edit a picture my friend len took. Can you see me on the header? I'm on the far right, standing. The streak of light was supposed to be red. I blued everything. See, i really don't know how to edit pics using picnik.

Anyways, right after I posted that new header I opened my email and saw an email from Peachy. She sent me several blog headers. Now I'm confused which header to use. Tell me which look better, the old one or this?
or this?

or this?

or this?

lastly, this?

My Friday Feast

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Say there’s a book written about your life. Who would you want to narrate the audio version?

-- zach braff, because he narrates really good in scrubs as dr. john dorian. I love the show and the way Doc JD narrates it.

Take the letters from your favorite kind of nut and write a sentence. (Example: Perhaps every avenue needs understanding today.)

-- Can anyone see how everything's worthless? (hahaha this is fun)

If you could go back in time and spend one week in another decade, which decade would you choose?

-- The 70s. I think it's so cool to be among the beatle fans, the marxists and the hippies.

Main Course
Name a song that brings back memories for you.

-- kanlungan. Its a Filipino song about going back to a place which used to be a 'sanctuary' ( i think thats the best translation for the word) It brings back memories of my college days.

Do you prefer to wash your hands in cold water or warm water?

-- warm water. I can't stand the cold.

My type of guy

Thirteen Things about ME

13 celebrities I really find attractively cute

Writing about kyle today inspired me to do this list. I will not include my boyfriend on the list. He isn't a celebrity, for one, and its given :) Instead, this are celebrities from the Philippines and elsewhere that has/had caught my eye. Can you see the similarities among them??
    1. RicoYan. I know, i know, he's dead. But the fact is, I have this huge crush on him ever since I can remember. I cried buckets when he died. :((
    2. Mickey Perz. The first time I saw him on Pinoy Big Brother speaking German, I got hooked! :)
    3. Eddie Cahill. I can get lost in your eyes. and dimples. I really really adore him. He's the best character in CSI:NY..hehe
    4. Alfred Vargas. He's a real hunk. Looks like a typical tambay, and umm..he kinda reminds me of someone I used to know.
    5. Jerry Yan. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I like Dao Ming Si's looks. He sure do belong here in my list with his cute eyes, dimples and yummy body.
    6. Eminem. Yep, yep yep. This guy is one of the hottest person alive for me. I love his angas looks and those piercing eyes.
    7. Brandon Boyd. Boy, he can sing. and he does have the looks and the body too. I envy my officemate Mic for having seen them in person. And she has the pics to prove it.
    8. Lee Ki-Woo. He's this tall chinky eyed Korean I saw from an excellent Korean movie The Classic. He plays the kind, understanding boyfriend and he really looks cute and awkward at the same time.
    9. Woo-Sung Jung. Yeah, he's Korean. I saw him the other day from a Korean mystery movie The Restless and oh..he's so good looking even if his costume is for a rugged-looking nomad.
    10. Hyun Bin. Another korean I saw from a movie I watched..I think the title was A Millionaire's First Love. This guy looks so ugly when frowning but really cute when he's smiling.
    11. Umm..add Matt Dallas to the list. He's adorably cute too.
    12. The Rock. If you can smell what the rock is cooking?! I loved his act back when he was in the WWF.
    13. Hugh Jackman. How can i forget wolverine? He's so ruggedly handsome, he almost didn't made my list since this is just for the cutest guys I know.

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meet kyle

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I was über bored yesterday. I didn't go out, didn't watch any DVDs and didn't have anything to do. I tried reading Teach Yourself German but I fell asleep. I forgot to watch Kyle XY which I've been trying to faithfully follow on TV.
Speaking of which, I really like that show, its so fresh and different from the crime dramas I have been watching as of late. The tv show's star, Matt Dallas, is 24 but he looks so innocently cute that he really pulls off acting like a newborn 16 year old clone.
I heard the show's a hit in the US. I've seen lots of very good comments about it from imdb. Personally I watched the pilot run on RPN 9 because I was looking for another kind of TV show. I found it here. Maybe I like the kind of shows where the protagonist narrates the story in first person. Im not the kinda writer who can do good reviews, I'll leave it to the pros. I just think you should see the show, when Kyle smiles he looks so sweet and innocent.

acting up.

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I was blog hopping the other day and I got interested in one particular blog. Anyone who can write a nine-word cinquain with a different kinda portrait can join. To my surprise my entry got accepted! :) Thanks wencel for the picture..Hihi.

I should be adding links again right now, but something's wrong with my blogger. I seem to be getting the same error message every time I try to add a pic, a link or whatever.

So, if you're curious, just follow this link.

promises are made to be broken, etc.

I'm just making an excuse for not writing. I just don't like to talk about yesterday.

It has been 2 years since Harvey left for Canada. I thought I can forget it by not thinking about it. I drank with friends after shift so that when I come home I could just lay down and sleep.

But no. After 3 bottles (thats my limit) and an hour of tossing and turning in my bed, I still remember. Good thing an anonymous donor sent me 30 pesos worth of load. I called him up after I realized its saturday and he should be home.

So we talked - no I mean he talked I cried. I reminded him that my limit of waiting was 2 years, and its now up. I know I should not pressure him like this, its not fair. There really are times when I want to give up and tell him to go find another girl there. Once I even thought of taking my life so I can get to see him, since he's psychic. (Don't worry, it was a momentary thought) And there are times when I'm tempted to look for another guy that can help pass the time. These are stupid thoughts. Its not fair because I know he's situation is much harder than mine. At least I have friends I can count on. He doesn't, he's alone.

I didn't tell him those. I just told him I'll still wait, no matter what. I still love him really deeply, even if I'm having doubts I know there isn't any other guy that I will feel this way. He's mine, I'm his, and thats for keeps.

another lazy day

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I didn't write anything today because I was enjoying this website I saw from the korean artist rain's profile. This website has so many funky clothes I'm having fun dressing up my avatar. Here's the first one I made:
Isnt it the cutest? I made another one, but somehow I can't upload it to my computer. Anyways, they have the funkiest shoes and all.. Go make your own!

this sucks.

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I think i'm suffering from Seasonal Affective Disorder. Umm. Whatever. I just feel tired, bored and depressed today because it was raining when I woke up. Maybe its because rains and late mornings remind me of the days when harvey could stay over and we could cuddle in bed all day long. Hayyy.
Rainy days and mondays always let me down. And you could add the fact that I'm uber bored because of this computer shop's internet connection and I'm sitting next to two little girls who are pimping themselves on the net. I'm trying to answer messages for work so at least I'm doing something with my time today. Yeah, I didn't go to work. I was enjoying the rain and some sleep when my alarm sounded. What was the first thing that came to my mind when I woke up? sleep again. Wahaha.
I slept so late last night because I was watching this new show Shark. I have heard of it from a text chatter and she said its like "csi meets dr. house" I told my housemate kiko about it and walah! he bought the disc yesterday. That's why i can't leave him. He's the best housemate. :)Anyways about Shark, its about this lawyer who used to be a defense attorney and because of a certain case, stopped defending criminals and joined the prosecution side. He was given a job to prosecute high profile cases. It doesn't sound CSI to me, more like this show we used to watch, what was it..the partner? I completely forgot. Anyways this show is more on the investigative side of prosecution and all. They go to crime scenes too, interview witness and dig up dirt to build a case. Speaking of which, maybe I'll just go home, cook some instant noodles and watch again.a

thirteen things

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Um, being the mimic that I am, i wanted to do my own thursday 13. I was thinking of a good list to put in, but as usual, an idea came to me while I'm in the latrine. Ahihi. Since this is my first, and since its called a meme, i want to write 13 things about me. And since I got comments on my white lace and promises post from mariuca and johnny ong, I said I there are things I wanted to do before getting married, so here goes...

13 things I want to do before I get married:

  1. Get laid. wahahaha.
  2. Go to a bar/club and really partaaay.
  3. Learn Chinese, seriously. ( I don't want to look illiterate to my future in-laws)
  4. Get a total make over. I don't want to look losyang.
  5. Save enough for a plane ticket to Canada (and back, in case I didn't like it)
  6. Get a certificate for a computer course somewhere (I learned, in a hard way, that a piece of paper proving that you know computer is important, you can't just say you know.)
  7. Have my passport stamped in Singapore, Malaysia, and Indonesia.
  8. Sell all my books, and shop for winter clothes.
  9. Have a grand vacation, preferably, in Boracay. I want to think things over.
  10. Earn at least a hundred dollars from adsense and mylot.
  11. Go home and spend Christmas with family, which I haven't done in years.
  12. Learn how to cook. My, I really have to brush up my cooking er..skills?
  13. Realize what career I would like to have. Yeah, i know, i had 25 years to think about it, but still, I haven't decided what I want to be.

Get the Thursday Thirteen code here!

The purpose of the meme is to get to know everyone who participates a little bit better every Thursday. Visiting fellow Thirteeners is encouraged! If you participate, leave the link to your Thirteen in others comments. It’s easy, and fun! Be sure to update your Thirteen with links that are left for you, as well! I will link to everyone who participates and leaves a link to their 13 things. Trackbacks, pings, comment links accepted!

quote for the day

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I watched another korean flick last night after getting tired of watching Criminal Minds. I think the title was Highway Star 1. Maybe their inspiration was the deep purple song. Whatever.The hero was the same guy who played the guy in my sassy girl. His name is Cha Tae-Hyun. Or Tae hyun Cha.
The story was about this rocker guy who wanted to be famous. He ditched his friends and went to Seoul upon the invitation of 2 down in luck talent agents. There he met a girl who sings awfully it rains every time she sings. She seems not to feel embarrassed or whatever.
Anyhoo the reason I'm writing this is her. She said something that made me think. She asked Tae Hyun,
"Do you know why it rains when rain dancers dance?"
"...its because they dance 'til it rains."

poetry in trance

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I generally hate trance. or club. or house. I don't consider them music. I find it so irritating but there's one song I don't mind hearing. Its the song 'ever after' by bonnie tyler. I love it. If you hear it you might not be able to get the lyrics, so here it is:

Three years ago, our journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start

The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
Yet I fell hard for your imperfections

And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn
Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet
I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh
Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,
And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride
I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we're floating, when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love, and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Unfortunately I am so dumb I don't know how to put a music clip here. Maybe next time.

It reminds me a lot of my current relationship with my boyfriend..He's my twisted sunshine. :)

White lace and promises

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Last night my officemates once again had another "chill out session," meaning we drank 2 or 3 bottles of beer again. I don't know who started the topic, but we talked about marriage and instead of the usual bashing session, and I ended up crying.

My officemate asked me why I didn't agreed on marrying my boyfriend before he left for Canada. I told him it wasn't enough reason for us to marry. Sure, we love each other so much, I am very afraid that I might loose him, but I don't want to tie him down just to make sure that I wouldn't loose him. I love him to death, and I don't think there will be any guy that I will love more than I love Harvey.

There are things that I want to do before I get married. I want to find myself, my purpose and my reason for existence. I want to achieve my dream, or and there seems to be something I need to prove to myself as an individual, and not as Mrs. Hibo.
I know all those sound selfish when quoted out of context, but you see, I don't want to complicate my life further. How am I supposed to tell myself that I will give my heart and soul to one man, when I haven't found myself yet.

One more thing, I know that if I would not get to achieve whatever purpose or dream I have before I marry, I might pass my frustrations on to my future children. I know parents tend to do that (mine did, at least) and I don't want to, if I can help it.
I know, i have too much pride, and ambition, but hey, I can't help it. I don't want to marry just because. I want to marry because I am ready.

Men marry because they are tired;
women, because they are curious:
both are disappointed.

Oscar Wilde

desimpsonize me please

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Me as a simpson character? wahaha..Look how i simpsonized myself. Does it look like me? i dunno. I had to look for a super closeup with at least 640 by 480 pixels. anyways I found one but it didn't even come close. Oh well. Just make ur own, its fun. :) Heres how.

i miss the spark

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One of the websites I used to frequent when I first learned the workings of the net was The I think it was so popular back then, and it was a really cool site. They have tests that measure your life, your iq, your gender, purity etc. They closed years ago because some bigger company got interested in their sub-site, the sparknotes.
Anyways, what i miss about that site is the way they ask the questions in their tests, the witty way they tell you the results, the way they bash canadians in their questions (its just funny, sorry.) They also have this funny experiments and pictures. I was looking for any site that may look the same but i can't find any. Its entertaining and enlightening at the same time. Even the archived spark page is down. :(

The founders of spark made okcupid, but the tests are just part of the package, they have dating chorvas that i'm not interested in. Also, the users make the tests. Its also fun, but it's no spark.

**its a girl thing**

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Why do my period have to hurt so much? I can't sit still, i can't stand, and I think I want to throw up. I'm very irritable and antsy too. I'm supposed to be used to this, but I still am not.

I started mine when I was in second year high school.I remember clearly how it came. I was fifteen, and it was our christmas party at school the following day, and I was trying out my new clothes. Hehe. Anyways, when I removed my skirt I saw blood coming out between my legs. I panicked. I called out to my mom and cried. Of course she did help me get the blood off and taught me how to put in a napkin.

I know I was so immature at 15 because I used to ask my mom why my girl classmates seem to have hairs on their armpits. I didn't. I was a late bloomer, as they say, because when our teacher asked our class one day who among us were not yet having period. I put my hands up, of course, along with a classmate I know was a year younger than me. Other than us, everyone seem to have had their periods years ago.

Maybe that's why I literally shoot up. From being 5'3" I grew to my current height, 5'8". The only downside is that my boobs didn't. :( Hey, why am I talking about my boobs? this is supposed to be about my period.

I took mefenamic acid and I don't think it helped me a lot. My puson still hurts. My lower back hurts. The only posture I can get comfy right now is when I bend and make ipit my tyan.Wahaha. And I get bored more easily. So. I don't want to write no more.


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I seem to be flooding friendster's bulletin boards with my surveys. I know its not supposed to be used for them, so here I am, cutting and pasting away another survey.

1. In one sentence, explain yesterday:
* It was so rainy, i decided to stay home and to pig out and chillax.

2. What made u smile today?
* I saw a guy I liked back in high school from my Who Viewed Me list. He's married, and his wife is pangit. (bitter, bitter)

3. What were u doing this morning at 8
* Sleeping and maybe dreaming. I woke up at 1130.

4. What were u doing 15 minutes ago?
* Looking for a blog skin for my other blog, which I haven't any luck yet.

5. Something that happened to u in 1985?
* I don't know, I was 3 and I have no memory yet.

6. Last thing someone else said to you?
* Sige, sige.

7. What was ur answer?
* (I think i didn't answer)

8. Worst thing currently on television:
* boxing bruhahas.kokey.everything on primetime bida. and Wowowee.

9. What was in your e mail today?
* speaking of which..lemme open it..oh, our college org has a new website.

10. How many different beverages have you drank today?
* water, coffee, coke. 3.

11. What is ur favorite part of the day?
* dvd time T_T

12. Your current To-do list?
* laundry, fix my other blog, upload pics, work.

13. Where is ur best friend right now?
* What bestfriend? I don't play favorites among my friends.

14. What color is ur toothbrush?
* green and white.

15. What are u wearing right now?
* blue jacket, purple tee, jeans and new balance

16. Any plans for Friday night?
* Most likely it will be nom-i. partaaayyyyy!

17. Least favorite place to shop.
* posh malls.too pretentious for my taste.

18. things u bought today?
* dinuguan, baked mac and coke.

19. Last gift you received?
* a Headset. from my wish list. :)

20. Who gave you that?
* he who secretly reads my blogs but never comments.

21. What made you sad today?
* i miss len.huhu

22. What can make you happy?
* beer, or a really corny joke.

23. Beauty is:
* me, personified. wahaha

24. Describe your key chain:
* just a simple chain with 2 keys. boring.

25. Where do u keep ur change?
* a coin purse i gave myself for my bday.

30. What are you going to do after this?
* upload pics.

i feel unky.

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My blockmate sealdz was one of the people that got me hooked to the net. She introduced me to a lot of fun and wacky websites ( i only knew how to ICQ and use hotmail before) and one of them was unkymoods. Its a fun smiley site that you can post on a blog, profile page etc.. I guess it was a long time ago, because when I checked my old blog for my unky, i can't find it anymore.
After some futile search, i was able to find punkymoods. They're using the same smileys and moods. Anyways, I, of course, signed up and joined it..If you can scroll over this blog you will see my current mood. Hmm..maybe I should just put it here first..

Im feeling...
My Unkymood Punkymood (Unkymoods)

I'm just not sure why i'm having trouble with it..Everytime I use mozilla to open the website, its giving me this message:

Cookies are not enabled on your browser. Please adjust this in your security preferences before continuing.

I did, and changed ever setting that says cookies etc etc but I still can't get the website to open. Good thing I have explorer open. So whats wrong with my mozilla?


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Ah rain. After wishing for it for two months, here you are. I welcomed you with open arms knowing that the dams need you. We need you. Now, after two days of unstopping torrents, I'm not sure I still want to see you. I'm having sleepless nights thinking what would happen if the canal near our house overflows with water? Flood..inside the house again. AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!

to the left, to the left

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Sorry about the red stuff. I just got so pissed off earlier that i needed to express it in color. Yeah, I did successfully change my blog skin, but unfortunately it doesn't look good with the header wencel gave me. Wencel! if you are reading this, can you please pretty please make my header right? I do look very short and stocky on it.

What's with my pictures being taken while i'm not looking? And only my back, for pete's sake. Maybe I'm
Talikogenic. Hahaha. Its a corruption of two words - talikod and photogenic - meaning my rear looks good in pictures. You don't think so? lemme show you another one of my pics. So whatcha think? I don't remember this pic taken but apparently my officemate Jam took advantage of someone's camera and snapped a pic at me. I have another pic, but i'm not sure I want to share it just yet. It labels on the pornographic. wahaha. My boyfriend took that pic.

Now where was I? oh yeah, changing the theme of this blog. I don't freaking like this layout but I'll stick with this for now. I'm waiting for kiko (my housemate's) PC to come back home, so I can doodle and play around with my own design. Its hard to be creative with MS paint, but I have seen some people create great artworks with it. I'm not that kind of person.

angry me

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I swear if I still can't get my skin changed without getting errors, I will go back to blogdrive. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
For the nth time i've tried uploading another skin from When I pasted it into the edit html page in my blogger, all it said was error not all chorva was closed ek la vu blah blah blah. I hate it. I made sure all the tags and whatever they're called are properly closed. It's a fucking waste of time. Maybe i'll just go back to working right now.

**Guess what, when I was about to publish thi post, another error appeared..hmm..i'm thinking...i'm can i migrate my posts? this is the last straw..

blah blah

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Since i've been typing away for almost 7 hours straight, I don't think I'm in the mood to put in coherent thoughts today. Oh well let me try.
Yesterday was my officemate's last day. I think she had been in bbtxt for only a month but we hang out almost everyday. Of course we drank the night away to ' celebrate' it. I ate too much again, drink to little. My stomach is getting bigger everyday. Come to think of it, i've been drinking at least 3 times a week. My oh my.
Speaking of drinks, I swear I will never drink red horse again. After two stallions, I actually puked by guts out. That was from another drinking session.
Anyway, I can't even remember the last time I actually did, but I distinctly remember what happened. We were drinking at home in KNL, I think that was London Dry Gin and I think I passed out. Next thing I remembered, was my housemates were waking me up because I was sleeping with puke in my hair and face. Eww..No, i wasn't alone. Rhia was in the bed with me. Until now, we still don't know if it was mine or hers.
So where was I? that was a side story. Oh yeah, len. She likes photography a lot and actually takes really good pics. You may want to check her site. She flattered me a lot when she said I have a good eye for photography. Maybe it was the beer talking huh?
What's my point in writing today, anyhow? I don't know..Earlier I have been posting on forums and you know what? I was writing longer lately...It seems that my fingers are finally talking - or getting more talkative - whatever. I hope its not because I've been trying to reach the 6,061 messages quota by writing inane stuff. Is this inane? I don't know. Maybe it is, and I better stop now...Like some greek guy once said:
'Si tacvisses, philosophus mansisses'
(if you'd shut up, i'd keep believing you were wise)

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I'm writing two posts in one day? haha. I don't know what has gotten into me, but its just that I came across my old old website(imagine 4 years ago!) and I read some things I didn't remember writing about. I've forgotten how to edit it, and yahoo geocities seems complicated now.
Hmm..what can u say about it?


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“Sometimes you have to let go to see if there was anything worth holding on to.”

Aside from birthdays, I also hate goodbyes. It makes me feel so sad and useless. I can't do anything to keep people from leaving.

The first time I encountered so much sadness was during our high school graduation. I felt so sad knowing that we are going our separate ways, yes, we will see each other again, but things will never be the same. Damn, am I right. I don't think I feel the same affinity and affection I had with my friends back home. We each went our different ways, found different interests (and friends), and even if we tell ourselves nothing has changed, everything had.

There was also a time I cried a lot when my officemates from c3 where 'laid-off'(is that right) while we were having a farewell party. My officemate kit actually took a picture of it:

Sorry if it looks pixelized. It has been lifted from and to different pcs thats why it looks that way. I was so overwhelmed by sadness of goodbyes that I can't help but cry.

I remembered the day my boyfriend left for Canada.I spent the whole day crying, and only stopped to eat. I was working in c3 then, and I didn't go to work. I called the office, and told them, I won't be able to go to work because I was not feeling well, emotionally. Don't laugh, because that's what I really told them.

I don't think I'll ever get over the feeling of being left, I know its hard to say goodbye and leave, but its such a pain to be the one left waiting. Hay, I miss harvey so much it really, really hurts.


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wencel thanks for the header..haha i don't know if it was a gift for me or just an advertisement for your blog? hehe..Thank you, thank you.
I'm not in the mood to write today, but I just want to share a new word:

Post-Potter Depression.

The empty feeling that comes from finishing the seventh book in the Harry Potter series and realizing there will be no more.

Thanks to for that and to terence for sharing it with me. So I guess I wasn't really alone in what I felt huh?