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not telling
sorry. no details. maybe, just maybe later.
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Showing posts with label not telling. Show all posts
By deegee
Posted in
ex boyfriend angst,
goodbye,
not telling,
shit happens
i think i'm going crazy.
one minute i'm almost crying and in the verge of jumping off of our rooftop, the next i'm laughing about a post i read online.
ah what is wrong with me? i can't even sustain one emotion for an entire hour? maybe i need to get a therapist. or a psychiatrist. i don't know.
i really am going crazy. i can't think straight. right now if i stop for a moment to try to think i know i'll feel depressed. i don't want to. it's too much to bear. it's easier to pretend to be happy and carefree. but until when can i take it? maybe one day it will all boil over and i'm afraid of what i can do to myself. i'm afraid i'll lose my sanity. i'm afraid i'll lose myself.
By deegee
Posted in
ex boyfriend angst,
not telling
i started by first blog 7 years ago. wow that was a very long time ago. right now i'm trying to re-read the entries i wrote and i couldn't even remember i wrote them. hahaha. i guess that's one of the things that make me write stuff like this again. at least when i look back i will feel amused by how i was feeling at that moment.
oh my god. what a mushy corny person i was when i was younger! one entry describes how i want him around all the time. and one letter describing what happened between me and my other ex. it's fun to read that there are things i have forgotten and the internet hasn't.
I have forgotten that Harvey was just my rebound. hahahaha!
By deegee
Posted in
not telling
my friend E came over tonight. she said she was sad because her friend T now has a gf. she's not really jealous, just sad that she won't be able to hang out with him anymore since the GF might be jealous.
i know the feeling. i know it's selfish but it's sad when your friend gets someone else to hang out with. leaves no more time for you. :(
By deegee
Posted in
not telling,
schrodinger's cat,
the big bang theory
most private thing i'm willing to admit here?
what happened here stays here.not really gonna tell. this blog is too public to admit anything of that sort.
i really feel like i'm losing a very very good friend.
not sure where to go on from here.
everything changed. it doesn't seem so apparent in the surface, but it changes everything.
what was i thinking back then? what was i thinking? i never thought i'm that kind of girl. really didn't. am i?
oh well i guess i wasn't thinking. damn big bang.
cryptic me strikes again.
